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The Hills

I went out for a drive with Ren on Tuesday afternoon and I took a few photos along the way 😁😍 These particular views are between Balloch and Helensburgh on the A818. I’m afraid the photos never do the actual view any justice, you’d need to visit and see for yourself! 😉

Impish Self-care

In Therapy & Off Fentanyl

I had an appointment with my GP on Monday morning, we decided the best course of action in regards to my (lowest dosage) Fentanyl prescription was to rip the patch off at bedtime that evening rather than delay the inevitable. There was a second choice which involved leaving the patch on until it fell off by itself, but in no way […]

Isolating my Mental Health

Everything I’ve read so far on how to recover from trauma suggests going to a safe place in your mind from before the trauma, but I don’t have one, I don’t know where it is or how to get there as the abuse I endured started during pregnancy. I’ve no memory of feeling safe, there are times I let my guard […]

Overwhelming Emotional Response

Overwhelming Emotional Response

I had this really daft idea in my wee heid; cut all contact with the source of abuse, reconnect with those I lost and the pain will go away… HA! I completed my psychotherapy assessment and their report caused an overwhelming emotional response, but it will not defeat me because they never fucking listened. I sat there for 3 full sessions while he […]

Life in the Fentanyl Lane

Life in the Fentanyl Lane

Do you like what I did there? #snigger simple things! It’s true. I gave up trying to fight all the pain naturally. Who am I trying to kid? I can barely get from horizontal to vertical without help in the morning and there I was with all these plans (mostly food related) which were only making my mood a lot […]